not much has changed
in fact, nothing's changed
i've got nothing to lose
still lookin for what i have to gain

this may take a while. it's already taken too long.
i think i'm gonna lock the door and i ain't comin' out no more
the sun's too bright and the moon's too right
go to work all day, stay home all night
last night i was going to throw everything in my room away,
but then i smoked a bowl instead.


something's changed
someone's changed
but it wasn't me
and that's what i have to change

I've decided that I'm not going to let anything bring me down.
I've also decided that I have a definite purpose.

Hi
Today was okay. I have work at 5! My first Friday night at my new job. I'm sure the place'll be hoppin'.
I should use my time wisely. Maybe I'll record a demo or something.
Yeah! I think that's just what I'll do..


If you have my number, call it sometime.

 i just spent a while going through all my old entries. where is everybody?! i was so young and i still am    sort of. sometimes i wish i wasn't so doggone lonesome. i do have some pretty good friends though! one void filled! life is weird. i keep telling myself that whatever happens happens but i can't help but think that i affect that in some way. that might not make any sense to you, but it does to me. maybe i just have to do something different. try something new? change? sometimes it's hard to notice change. sometimes it's hard to change. either way, i want to hear from all of you. every last cotton pickin' fucker. loves.

hey everybody!
thanks for reading my online journal!1!!
today was kinda like yesterday. i may get a job at a fancy restaurant tomorrow. better shave.

Oh; myspace.
I wonder the next BIG THING'll be. I hope it's star trek.

Today I quit my job at Augustine Landing. I'm pretty damn sure that it was for the best. That place was driving me batty, not to mention depressing the shit out of me. I don't know what I'm going to do for now, but I'm sure I will find something. I guess I don't get my diploma until May or whenev. I went to Mandarin High today to return my parking pass. They called and left a message at 7 this morning telling me that I can't walk if I don't return it. I wasn't even planning on going up there but after I talked to my manager on the phone, I went and jumped in my car like I was going to work, I think I thought I was going to pick up my W-2. But then I realized, they probably have to send for it and shit and mail it to me. Well, at least I quit right after the last pay period ends, so I will be getting a check next week. Hopefully, I will have another job by then. We'll just have to wait and see. Not too long though.

feelin' kinda incomplete
smashed in a bottle in the street
but hey! at least i'm free now
floating in the air i rise
see myself in your eyes
but you're way up in the skies
how do you do you that?

i'm on my way i swear
i just don't know if you're gonna be there
a trail of smoke and
mirrors and tears
and i'll see more and more
another sea,another shore
i wish,i wish i could



i wrote this song at the shanty church a while back,recorded it the other day and i think i like it.i found it in a stack of papers(drawings,songs and such) that i didn't think should be thrown away.i really miss that bag of art goodies.

i have family upstairs and downstairs
i have friends who laugh and have a fun time
i have a sole partner,where is my partner's soul?
in a horse,in a carriage
somewhere else,someone else

twisting around that winding axle
chasing the wind-risen dust
looking at me through the back window
seeing nothing through the wind-risen dust

you were headed to pensacola
you hoping to meet some new people there
i told you people were the same everywhere
you already knew that,you just didn't care
you already knew that,you just didn't care

i was headed for north dakota
i was hoping to score big there
it didn't happen
i never scored big

just because you got a fresh start
doesn't mean you got a new life
you're gonna have to carry your
baggage around in your dirty mind

just because you got a fresh start
doesn't mean you got a new life
you're gonna have to carry your
baggage around in your dirty mind

i have a sole partner,where is my partner's soul?
in a horse,in a carriage
somewhere else,someone else

ever find what you're looking for?

here's a scapel,you can scalp me and reach my intentions.
but reading them's a struggle.